I Almost Quit
I’m not doing this challenge for vanity.
I’m not doing it cause it’s the cool thing to do.
I’m doing it to prove to myself in a 3D way, how much I can actually hold.
It’s important to remember that yes, we are cosmic, we are multidimensional, we ARE sovereignty but we are also human and in this human experience, denser ideas and thought patterns come in to try and steal your joy.
Sometimes we get caught in negative feedback loops and ego driven frustrations.
Sometimes we forget our divinity and feel like we are undeserving of success, love, wealth or liberation.
I’m doing this challenge to remind my earthly body that I am deserving of whatever I desire.
I am reminding myself that I am the alchemist in my life.
I am the magician.
I make the rules.
So after doing both of my outside workouts in the rain the last two days and getting all of my tasks done in the midst of walking my first red carpet event ever. It was the day I got home that almost took me out.
I slept until 8pm and woke up with both workouts needing to be done, more than half a gallon to drink and way behind on my protein and I thought to myself…”fuck it” just start again tomorrow.
I thought to myself “fuck it, just don’t do it and say you did”
I thought “it’s too late, fuck it”
Until I promptly remembered that I didn’t walk in the rain for 2 days for no reason. I didn’t come this far just to come this far. I didn’t attend a red carpet event with an open bar, full SOBER just for shits and giggles.
So I got up and I got the work done.
This isn’t a fitness challenge. This is a challenge in expansion.
Day 32.